With this being the week leading into my birthday my thoughts have invariably turned to my relationships or rather the lack there of.

Another year will have soon passed. And partly to fate and partly to my own insecurites nothing has changed yet again.

In an effort to distract myself I have delved into my iPod and started listening to some older stuff. And this song came along and just bitch slapped me full in the soul. And now I can't get it out of my head. From my feelings toward heat...my changes in belief towards religion...and what I fear but am starting to accept as my future.

Johnny Lang is so very talented. And his work with this song is just....The lyrics are below. Or to listen to it click this link. Will try to find a better video when I get home.

"The tar in the street starts to melt from the heat And the sweats runnin' down from my hair I walked 20 miles and I'm dragging my feet And I'll walk 20 more I don't care

And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone

I'm like a ghost some people can't see Others drive by and stare A shadow that drifts by the side of the road It's like I'm not even there

And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone

Well I've never been part of the game The life that I live is my own All that I know is that I was born To wander this world all alone, all alone

Some people are born with their lives all laid out And all their success is assured Some people work hard all their lives for nothin' They take it and don't say a word They don't say a word

Sometimes it's like I don't even exist Even God has lost track of my soul Why else would he leave me out here like this To wander this world all alone

And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone"

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