And finally the weekend has arrived. And with it my latest birthday on the horizon.

I've not been this happy, and this uncomfortable at the same time in a very very long time.

More than most, this past week has been one that could be best described as "hell on wheels rolling into a clusterfuck of historic proportions." But it COULD have been worse. I am absolutely worn out though. I have spent this week alternately fighting a lack of energy, an off again/on again migraine (3rd week), irritating situations, and keeping my frustrations in check.

Some of these things I did better than others.

I let my frustrations seep through more than I actually would have preferred last night...see previous post...and had to make sure I paid the proper respect to anyone who might have on an outside chance seen it and wondered where it was directed.

While I think I probably should have restrained a bit more, I DO feel like I was appropriately vague where needed. And in such a way that only those with a guilty conscious could take offense. But still it just shows how much more work I have left to do on repelling the negative energy generators in my life, and modify how I allow them to affect me.

I'm going to call it a learning experience.

This week was also just one of 6 in a row that are going to be BUSY at work... and not busy in the good way... though I do hope I am proven wrong on this one.

I did actually seem to perfect the pattern for my meds to keep the migraine in check.. so that is a good thing. Though I am still struggling with the discomfort of the upcoming birthday. It is just bothering me blah...

And now I face the nerve wracking adventure of being out socially with people in a real public place and all my anxiety that goes with it. But I really think it will be good for me, I've just got to keep telling myself that. I still can't believe the generosity and kindness that has been offered my way for my birthday this week. I didn't expect it and certainly was not going to solicit it.

It really is an adventure of surprises in life where the positive energy will sneak up and lunge at you. I am humbled and appreciative of this fact and the act it is tied to.

In just a few short hours Mom is going in for the 1st of two surgeries for cataract removal and stigmatism lens corrective surgery. She will have the other eye done in a week or two.

It's times like these I really wish I were able to be home to help out. But I know that she is in good hands so that helps!

And now that the week is truly and completely catching up to me... I'm out!

DB

P.S. OUTSTANDING JOB JOEY LOGANO #20!! That was a great performance at Martinsville and a much deserved finish! Keep it up and you till be winning them left and right in no time at all!!