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I'm not sure where I got the link to this but it's worth sharing. I really rather wish I'd had these words when I was younger, and I am grateful to have them now. So often I have to keep reminding myself of this.

Perhaps maintaining that hope is foolish, but hope is often the thing that keeps us moving.

Now if only to find that strength to just do it...

If there is something I could add to this, it would be to say that sometimes the meanest bully is the one inside. The one you are to yourself. It's often the hardest one to shed. I struggle with this everyday, and is one of the reasons I eat the way I do.

I'm an emotional eater - I own that. And that inner bully just pushes the buttons and triggers it. Making it all to easy to just bypass the logic center. It's something I have a lot of work to do on. And something that I have got to find a way to put aside, not just for my health, but so that at some point I can live a life outside my safe little bubble that I've put myself in. The life I know I deserve, the one that I want and crave, the one that I know is there; but that the inner voice just tells me I don't deserve it and will never have it.

It's a damned loud and powerful voice. Built on many things from the past, present, and of so much else.

This is one of those things that I've wanted to do for a long time... and one of the biggest reasons I open up so much of my private emotional turmoil with weight, sexuality, and just being... So that others out there maybe going through something similar know that they are not alone. And that there are others who are working to get through it.

Please watch if you have the time, and share with anyone and everyone. You never know whose life you might touch, and what private pain you might be able to help sooth - if only for a time, just by putting this out there.

Be that bit of bright positive energy that happens into someone's life. Those moments are miraculous!

DB